Thank the Almighty. Remember the Almighty.
We can always plan, HE knows what's in store. Neck deep in credit card debts and the rising cost of living is not an easy feat especially when you work your ass off and nobody gives a shit.
I've been putting off paying the mounting pile of bills and dreading the bus ride to work because I know the minute I tap my card on the scanner, it's going to give off that annoying beeping 'please top up your card' reminder. I worry if my child have enough pocket money and cried inside when he said "it's ok, I still have the $2 you gave me last week".
So I was not my usual self yesterday. Down in the blues with as much enthusiasm for work as watching a snail's olympic. I have no cash in my wallet save for 5 cents which is in Malaysian currency and is as useful as stale curry. My ATM is dry and I've maxed out all my credit cards. In the rush to prepare breakfast for the kids and herding them out of the house that morning, I have forgotten to bring my own lunch which was left steaming at the counter cabinet at home. With 5 cents of Malaysian currency to my name, I sat forlornly in the bus hoping for a miracle.
It came sooner than expected. A colleague gave 2 slices of brownies. It was superb, rich and filling. Enough to last me that morning. By noon, I busied myself with Facebook and trying to ignore the rumbling calling in my tummy.
At 4pm, while rummaging through my side cupboard for stray coins, I found $1 and made my way to the cafeteria. There was a plate with 1 Gendang Kasturi and 1 Harum Manis for 50 cents each. As it was the final 2 piece, the cashier charge me 50 cents for both pieces. Hmm, 2 miracles in less than 5 minutes.
Trudging back to the office, I started wondering about past boyfriends and wondered what their reactions would have been if they were to see me financially broke like this. I started thinking of Tommy and Gina in Bon Jovi's song "Living on a Prayer" I started thinking of my ambitions and dreams and all those things that just didn't turned out the way I planned.
Once at my desk, a colleague called again to remind me that the 'results' were in. It's our code word for 'payslips'. It's performance bonus month and the usual 50% extra would be a much needed welcome. Breathlessly, I waited for the screen to upload and gasp. 85%!!.. Subhanallah....
That gave me enough boost to skip through the rest of the day. Last night, after putting in a few hours longer with the cab, hubby came home and told me how, his target of $300 was not met. Tired, after sending one passenger from the Sentosa Casino to a pub in Kampong Baru, he decided to call it a day with $260. Less than 5 minutes later, he heard an unfamiliar ringtone. The passenger had left his handphone in the backseat. He picked the call and agreed to meet the owner. The thankful guy reached into his packet and gave a note to hubby through the open window. There was a lot of declining and pursuading from both parties before the guy quickly left the note on the passenger seat after a round of thank yous and tapped the side as if to wave the cab off because it's beginning to cause a traffic obstruction on the cramped road. $50.
So many miracles in one day. It was too emotional to be graphic. Words just can't describe it.
Allah is great. May HE forgive my sins and I thank HIM for guiding me. Amin.
